A Derived Decision
Have you ever accepted something that seemed right at first, but in the end, turned out completely different…or know what it’s like to be led in a certain direction only to have the rug pulled out from under you at the last minute?
No doubt, we’ve all been there…charmed by a favorable circumstance, only to be discouraged by the disenchanting mirage in its wake.
But truth is: how we cope with such disappointment is worth discussion.
‘Cause if for everything, there is a season, a time for every activity under heaven (Ecclesiastes 3:1), then it makes sense how the delay, even death of a dream can be exactly what we need1.
Consider the story of my life last month…when such insight ignited after a private school pitched me an alluring math teaching position2.
For two weeks, everything converged on what I thought was an “open door” opportunity.
The interviews? Excellent. My application? Outstanding. My audition? Smooth…especially on short notice.
Eventually, I received an official offer and after a weekend of prayer, verbally accepted, figuring I was finally being rewarded with the career change I’d been believing for.
But while everything made sense “on paper”, it wasn’t until my eyes met the contract’s fine print that I realized the job wasn’t going to be the answered prayer I’d once expected.
As a result, the pursuit stalled…and the decision became lodged between a rock and a hard place3.
So I returned to the drawing board.
Yes, the opportunity would have allowed me to reach certain goals over a two-year span; however, it wasn’t going to permit me to immediately provide for my family in a critical season.
Thus, the question came down to: Is this the time to slice 66.67% off my income and rely on God to supernaturally provide for my family?
After a night of prayer and processing, I woke the next morning to the tune of a still, small whisper:
‘Cameron, I will anoint your steps no matter what you decide’4.
Immediately, I knew what I needed to do…
…decline the offer and commit back to TDOT.
The next day, after making my intentions known, I became overwhelmed by an inner peace.
No question, I had made the right call…
…granted, it still hurt like heck.
After all, the decision was the postponement of a dream near and dear to my heart.
Yet, as my spirit received resolution, I was reminded how...
1) God delights in entrusting us with His Word...
2) God delights in imparting His confidence...
And as a result…
3) Our will strengthens only when we let it go5.
In my case, clarity came the moment I a) renounced my fear of making the wrong decision and b) confessed I had the mind of Christ (1 Corinthians 2:16) and the tools to make the right choice.
Once I acted in confidence and took authority in Christ, not only did my peace strengthen, but I could also feel the tangible presence of God in my midst (Seriously…I kid you not…it was like I could sense God’s hand on my shoulder, cheering me on saying, ‘You got this, Cam!’)
In short, although the ordeal felt like an emotional roller coaster, I consider the ride completely worth it.
True, I had to turn down a desirable opportunity…
…but now…I’m in position to receive a better one.
Not to mention I got to experience God lifting a weight off my back and filling me with His peace.
So I guess the moral of the story is: trust the Spirit’s leading…and don’t worry about making the wrong decision. Instead, empty yourself before the Lord so you may receive His confidence, which in turn, will illuminate the way you are to go.
Not only will you find a decrease in disappointment, but an increase in Holy Spirit reliance as well.
1) A lesson we usually understand better in theory than application
2) (i.e. teaching three of my favorite math courses in a supportive environment with a licensing program in the summer)
3) The “rock” representing the tantalizing career move and the “hard place” representing the stale, cubical vacuum I’ve grown accustom to
4) Essentially, God was putting the ball in my court, giving me the chance to make the call without the guilt of feeling one way was absolutely right and the other absolutely wrong
5) (i.e. “let go and let God”)
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